Effect

Cooped up with nothing but my thoughts and
Staring at the same four walls
How is this too much
And still not enough
The sunlight's peeking through my window
It was my choice not to let her in though
But the trees have been calling my name

See, we used to be good friends
But I tend to disconnect
When I have to make the extra effort
It was not so long ago
And that's the only home I know
And the thought of going back is a temptress

It's such a shame I am the way I am

Ooo oh I just wanna go outside
But I can't deal with anything
But sunny days or pouring rain, oh woah
It's a different world we live in
Even our beloved sun has said farewell
Ah I just wanna go outside

There's a cold friend knocking at my door now
Every day he brings a little more
But I have long since decided to hide
I know we all need time for growing
But the pace is only slowing
I'm getting sick of always being inside

It was not always like this
I have felt the winter kiss
And I've smiled under snowflakes falling
But it takes a little time
And I have so much on my mind
I've decided to ignore the calling

It's such a shame I am the way I am

Ooo oh I just wanna go outside
But I can't deal with anything
But sunny days or pouring rain, oh woah
My mind is fighting back
This is the only thing to heal my pain

Some days are more like nighttime
And the nights, I lie awake
Doesn't this just seem counterproductive

Sounds are reaching my ears
All the birds that I call friends
Don't have enough to say to motivate me

Still, I know what I must do
And it's the hardest thing it's true
Don't underestimate the power of conflict

Saying yes to all the nos
Always keeps me on my toes
Day after day I have to face the same me

Getting ready here I go
Lift my head up to the sun
A brand new day has just begun
Defeat is soon to be defeated

Ooo oh I just wanna go outside (I just wanna go)
I just wanna go
I just wanna, I just wanna go
I just wanna go outside
(I just wanna go, I just wanna go)
I wanna go
(I just wanna go, I just wanna go)
(I wanna go)