Making Friends With Suicide
I've come this far and I won't stop now
It's become so hard and I don't know how to
Get my head straight and keep it clear
Because there's no room in my life for fear
I was close to giving up because it got too tough
They pushed me close to the edge and I had had enough
I was trying so hard to find an easy way out
It's so fucking hard to find an easy way out
When there's nothing to live for, I live for myself
Make the choices for me, and fuckin' nobody else
When the light starts to dim and the hope starts to fade
I take a look at my life and the progress I've made
Life gets hard but you deal with it
It will give you shit, but you don't have to kneel in it
Destructive thoughts were always about
Trying so hard to find an easy way out
My thoughts are making my head start aching
My hands are shaking, I can't take the pain, I'm breaking
My hope is fading, I'm hesitating
But I'm not waiting anymore tonight to die
And I'm all out of decisions
And my back's against the wall
And I had the motivation
Or opinions at all
And no one really knows me
And no one ever will
And no one fucking knows me
I'm back to thoughts of taking pills
My thoughts are making my head start aching
My hands are shaking, I can't take the pain, I'm breaking
My hope is fading, I'm hesitating
But I'm not waiting anymore tonight to die
It's so fucking hard to find an easy way out
We're always trying so hard to find an easy way out
We're always trying so hard to find an easy way out
We're always trying so hard to find an easy way out
We're always trying so hard
Another night wasted trying to find
A way to clear its tainted mind
Knife in hand he's gonna try
Making friends with suicide
Suicide, suicide
My thoughts are making my head start aching
My hands are shaking, I can't take the pain, I'm breaking
My hope is fading, I'm hesitating
But I'm not waiting anymore tonight to die
Die, die