Subourbon

I'm sure it's me: there's something wrong
Inside my head. I can't get along
The way others can
I take the pill. It leaves me ill. It doesn't go to plan
Perpetually an also-ran, but hoping still
But sitting still, but sitting still, but sitting still, or what you will

Some kind of sin: the way they look at me
Hardens into my skin. What's on TV?
Oh, that again
I mean there's nothing wrong with staying in
This house where nothing quite stays put and it's always cold
Log in again, again, and watch my friends get old

Disintegrating slowly
In our exquisite melancholia
We'll go to the same party a thousand times

I do a sudoku: it's the Japanese
Art of eliminating possibilities
Am I out of danger yet? Please, somebody knock me to my knees
Somebody make me catch my breath. Something stir my flesh
Please
I click Refresh. I click Refresh. I click Refresh. I click Refresh

Disintegrating slowly
In our exquisite melancholia
We'll go to the same party a thousand times

We have everything here. All you have to do is drive
Mannequins in windows
Is anybody left alive?

I don't want an excuse, some acousma of a life
And in my lucid hours I feel this isn't it, this isn't right
Let's shake things up, let's leave tonight. What do you say?
And that's another day we've kept at bay, kept at bay, kept at bay...

Disintegrating slowly
In our exquisite melancholia
We'll go to the same party a thousand times