Autobiography
This is the autobiography of Nicki Maraj
May the Lord protect me as the world gets hectic
My voice projected, my life reflected (the more I cry, the more I try)
(Can you hear me? Yeah)
Daddy was a crack fiend, two in the morning
Had us runnin' down the block like a track team
When you burnt the house down and my mother was in it
How could I forget it? The pain is infinite
She's my queen and I ain't even British
She's the only reason that I went to school and I finished (yeah)
She told me that I had talent
Got on her knees, and prayed for me when I started bein' violent (okay)
She saw somethin' in me that
'Til this day I don't know if I could be that (kyuh)
But I'ma die tryin', and when I'm done cryin'
Grab the iron, and black out like I'm retirin' (kyuh)
Nightmares of you killin' my mother
The reason that I sleep with my head under the covers
And they should've thrown a book at you
'Cause I hate you so much that it burn when I look at you
May the Lord protect me as the world gets hectic (I'll keep tryin')
My voice projected, my life reflected (keep, keepin' on)
May the Lord protect me as the world gets hectic
My voice projected, my life reflected (the more I cry, the more I try)
Damn, I wanna run to you
Hold you and kiss you, and tell you how I miss you (I miss you, baby)
Thought I would have a son for you
But now it's official, it's over and I can't let you go (ooh)
But I gotta let you know
All the shit I did made me feel like I'm dyin' real slow
'Cause no one understands me
They don't know what to do when I'm hurt and when I'm angry
You was my friend, and my man, and my daddy
You was there when that bitch tried to stab me
Anything I ever needed, knew you had me
'Cause of you, all them chicks couldn't stand me
So why I hurt you? That's the question
It took this long, for me to learn my lesson
'Cause now all I want is peace and get drama
I finally understand the true meanin' of karma
May the Lord protect me as the world gets hectic (I'll keep tryin')
My voice projected, my life reflected (keep, keepin' on)
May the Lord protect me as the world gets hectic
My voice projected, my life reflected (the more I cry, the more I try)
Please baby, forgive me (forgive me)
Mommy was young, mommy was too busy tryna have fun
And I don't pat myself on the back for sendin' you back
'Cause God knows I was better than that (kyuh)
To conceive you, then leave you
The concept alone seems evil, I'm trapped in my conscience
I adhered to the nonsense
Listened to people who told me I wasn't ready for you
But how the fuck would they know what I was ready to do?
And of course, it wasn't your fault (no)
It's like I feel you in the air
I hear you sayin', "Mommy don't cry, can't you see I'm right here?" (Yes)
I gotta let you know what you mean to me
When I'm sleepin', I see you in my dreams with me
Wish I could touch your little face, or just hold your little hand
If it's part of oGd's plan maybe we can meet again
The more I cry, the more I try, gotta keep on
My voice projected, my life reflected (the more I cry, the more I try, gotta keep on, gotta keep on)
The more I cry (the more I cry), the more I try (the more I try), gotta keep on (keep on)
My voice projected, my life reflected
The more I cry (the more I cry), the more I try (the more I try), gotta keep on
May the Lord protect me as the world gets hectic
(More, more, more, more, more, gotta keep, mo-, more)
The more I cry (the more I cry), the more I try (the more I try), gotta keep on
May the Lord protect me as the world gets hectic
The more I cry (the more I cry), the more I try (the more I try), gotta keep on
The more I cry (the more I cry), the more I try (the more I try), gotta keep on
May the Lord protect me as the world gets hectic
My voice projected, my life reflected
May the Lord protect me as the world gets hectic
My voice projected (yeah), my life reflected
May the Lord protect me as the world gets hectic
My voice projected, my life reflected (can you hear me? Yeah)
May the Lord protect me as the world gets hectic