Pretending

I saw the face in the window
Lighting up a cigarette
Smokey brown eyeshadow
I learnt it from a woman on the internet

Oh, how the hell have you been, babe?
Put your coat on the bed
Let me get you a cup
Sip it up, up right to your head

All the people over there
They don't seem to have a care
I'm so fucking self-aware, it's exhausting
And no matter how I try, I repeat it every night
Every night, evеry night, every night

I'm done prеtending, pretending
Done pretending
All of my heroes are way more sad than me
Am I the only one pretending, pretending
One pretending?
Oh, who are you so afraid to be
To be, to be, to be, to be?

I lied about liking your dress
I lied about sticking around
I lied about knowing the band
That you talked and talked all night about
So take it up with the jury
'Cause I don't really care anymore
And if you listen real close you might
Just hear the penny drop on the floor

All the people over there, they don't seem to have a care
I'm so fucking self-aware, it's exhausting
And no matter how I try, I repeat it every night
Every night, every night, every night

I'm done pretending, pretending
Done pretending
All of my heroes are way more sad than me
Am I the only one pretending, pretending
One pretending?
Oh, who are you so afraid to be
To be, to be, to be, to be?

(Am I the only one pretending, pretending, one pretending?)
Leave me alone
(Am I the only one pretending, pretending, one pretending?)
I wanna go home

(Am I the only one pretending, pretending, one pretending?)
Leave me alone
(Am I the only one pretending, pretending, one pretending?)
I wanna go—
(Am I the only one pretending, pretending, one pretending, pretending?)