Maybe (Alone)

I could be standing in a crowded room
With everybody talking too
But all I hear is the silence
Melancholy and violins
My life is looking like an exit sign
Ask how I'm doing and I say I'm fine
They fake a smile and walk on by
Guess that means I'm not worth the try
But why
What they got that I don't have
Why people around me always getting so mad
It kind of makes me not trust myself
When all the words I'm hearing are shotgun shells
Messages got me feeling hollow
Inside my chest you can hear the echo
I had some confidence but where'd it all go
All this rejection got me feeling alone
Sometimes I think I can do it alone
But I end up staying up crying all night long
I just want somebody next to me
Who doesn't only give their love for a fee
If I looked like this
Talked like that
Maybe if I dropped a few pounds of fat
Maybe if I didn't freeze up like that
I would be someone's valuable and not just trash
It's amazing how hard I can try
To please somebody to be worth their time
Stacking pennies while I'm giving dimes
They sipping on me like a glass of wine
Drink me up until I'm all gone
Then leave and find somebody else to latch on
What kind of people are these anyway
I'm steady trying to find the one's that stay
Yep they forget me and move right on
Will I be somebody to anyone
I'm discouraged I just want someone
To pick me as their number one
Maybe if I looked like this
Talked like that
Maybe if I dropped a few pounds of fat
Maybe if I didn't freeze up like that
I would be someone's valuable and not just trash