Suicide Notes

Cough cough cough I'm exhausted
How long am I expected to keep on this
This path I don't see too many walking
Walking
Now I'm crawling
Cough cough cough feeling spacey
Wondering where this road is going to take me
Only still here because Jesus sent a lifeline
If not for Him I would've been gone a long time

Keep trying to breathe but it's stuck in my throat
Why's my pen writing suicide notes
Thought I would make it farther but I choked
Can't feel love with a heart that stay broke
What a joke
I'm a joke
Suicide notes
What a joke
I'm a joke
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Keep trying to see but my eyes are still blind
Why does my mind always fast forward the time
Wouldn't go back don't want to rewind
But if I could do it all again I would choose a better mind
Joke
What a joke
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Joke
What a joke
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Cough cough cough I'm exhausted
Trying to find my sanity because I lost it
Nobody told me life was like a stampede
Stomping on me every time I can finally breathe
I feel weak there's shame in my soul
Thinking about all these people getting old
Wondering how they held on so long
When I'm twenty-six years writing suicide songs
Cough cough cough I can't take it
Mental health put me on the waitlist
Guess I'll keep fighting or I'll die trying
What's one more night going to bed crying
They can't say that I didn't persevere
Heart's beating that's because I'm still here
I'm really trying don't want to let myself down
But if I don't get some air soon I'm going to drown

Keep trying to breathe but it's stuck in my throat
Why's my pen writing suicide notes
Thought I would make it farther but I choked
Can't feel love with a heart that stay broke
What a joke
I'm a joke
Suicide notes
What a joke
I'm a joke
Suicide notes
Keep trying to see but my eyes are still blind
Why does my mind always fast forward the time
Wouldn't go back don't want to rewind
But if I could do it all again I would choose a better mind
Joke
What a joke
Suicide notes
Joke
What a joke
Suicide notes