Overdose

I’ve lost all my hope
The drugs tied the rope
I’ll overdose
This is the path that I chose

I lay in bed, wishing I’m dead
These thoughts running through my head,
My story’s written
Let it be read, Let it be said
I won’t declare
Myself to be worthy and fair
I bled my fair share
But who actually fucking cares?
If people know me they can judge
Who I am and what I’ve done wrong
That’s why I’m writing this suicide note of a song
So long, I’m gone

I’ve lost all my hope
The drugs tied the rope
I’ll overdose
This is the path that I chose

From the stage to the field
I was taught to never yield
Burden’s getting harder to wield
Pain’s getting harder to shield
But I yield
I’m seeing red, feeling dread
I’ve been all up in my head
Overthinking what I said
(Why? Why? Why?)
Remembering the lies I lead
Trying to float, trying to tread
But I’m on the ledge
Holding on by a thread
I’m ripping myself to shreds
It’s so dark, I can’t see what’s ahead
Man why can’t I just be dead?
(Die, die, die)

I try to always seem fine
Always try to worry about the problems that aren’t mine
But I never knew how to draw the line
How to take back my time
This life ain’t mine
I’m losing my mind
I’m caught in a bind
This shit ain’t kind
I ain’t aligned
I’m confined and defined by by by my mind

This life ain’t mine
I’m losing my mind
Caught in a bind
This shit ain’t kind
I ain’t aligned
I’m confined and defined by by by my mind

My actions have hurt more than me, myself, and I
At a certain point I disassociated from my cries
And just started doing everything I could for a high
Cause I would rather be high than think about wanting to die
But I can’t take it anymore, my brain is fried
I’ve had enough, I’m done
Checkmate, my pain has fucking won

Bang! I’m tired of the pain
Bang! A liard is wired in my brain
Bang! I’ve derailed my train
Bang! I feel outta my lane
Bang! How am I supposed to stay Sane?
Bang! Can I even be true to Shane?
I could’ve refrained
Maybe even reframed
But in this life I will no longer appertain
Bang!

I’ll overdose
This is the path that I chose
I’ve lost all my hope,
The drugs tied the rope,
I’ll overdose,
This is the path that I chose