brain rot

I thought the world would end in my hands but it didn't
Instead, all of my thoughts just spilled and I stopped living
All these little things keep happening to me
And I don't know what to do with it

I shake my knees when I feel restless when I'm sitting
Guess I can't help comparing lives figured out by year eleven
I don't feel like I'm enough for you
So I rot 'til my hands turn blue

I fear fighting one-man battles
Inferior don't want to meddle
I could've asked for more
If only I would say if it were me
If it were me

I rot so much I'm holding by a thread
And I say it's all just in my own head
Feel like it's gonna hold me down
Nothing I can do to stop it now

Feeling like I'm not so special
It's hard to reach the boss level
How could I beat the score?
If only I would say if it were me
If it were me

If it were me, I could pick up the pace
If it were me, I'd have a reason to stay
I'd rather go be happy than go insane
If it were me, there would be no mistakes
If it were me, you wouldn't go away
If it were me, I'd feel okay
No rotting in my brain