Lullaby

Tired of waiting on you
Like I'm tired of waiting on the drugs to make me feel something
Tired of waiting
It's like I'm waiting on nothing
At least these pills stay by my side
I know I shouldn't talk about getting high (I'm so high)
But I wasn't meant to be a mainstream lullaby
So fuck what you think
I don't want to be right
All the shit that I do, I know you don't like it
But how the fuck, how the fuck I'm supposed to fight it?
Losing my control
Fuck everything that's happened to me lately
I just want to go away
Cause I got a withdrawal from happiness
I just want to shoot the sunshine in my veins
Everything that I love seems to go away
That's why I push you away
I hope you'd stay with me
But I know you're gonna leave
Tired of waiting on you
Like I'm tired of waiting on the drugs to make me feel something
Tired of waiting
It's like I'm waiting on nothing
At least these pills stay by my side
I know I shouldn't talk about getting high (I'm so high)
But I wasn't meant to be a mainstream lullaby
So fuck what you think
I don't want to be right
All the shit that I do, I know you don't like it
But how the fuck, how the fuck I'm supposed to fight it?
I want to be told that I'm understood
That it's gonna be okay
I want to be told that I'm loved, too (I do)
I want to be your priority
I got a lot of work that needs to be done
I want to start today
But everything that I love seems to go away
That's why I push you away
I hope you'd stay with me
But I know you're gonna leave
It's not right