What's Real?

Tell me what's real and what ain't
I've been late on bills as of late
Get a different feel every day
On the last wheel of the race
At least I think
Since 15 tryna roll into the rink
Tryna stay afloat don't sink
Gotta sail away
I might make bail today
I don't wanna fail
I'm afraid but no I can't stay
I gotta go back to my space
Tryna move at my own pace
So know I'll be a lil late
Tryna shoot my shot like Messi
But execution been messy
Tryna let go they won't let me
These thoughts in my head
All of my feelings at fault in the red
Like I'm in debt
Been paying more than minimum wage than I can guarantee
Putting fear in me
Something's missing in the centerpiece
Tryna fix it got me puzzling
Acting like a dog but I ain't muzzling
Holding weight up I've been struggling
Scared to fumble it
So ashamed Imma mumble it
How a nigga feeling today?
I'm just tryna chill and get paid
Off the hills or the lake
Is it real or fake?
If real, I cannot stop
X flow is so tip-top
But he flip flop
Wishy-washy
Window wipers
To you whack rappers I'm a sniper
Clan blood I'll only die for
Take a life for
It's where I think I got all this pride from
Need no hiccups
Shit is styrofoam
I'm too fucked up to drive alone
Spending way too much time at home
Don't mind me I'm in my own
It's how a nigga feeling today
It's how I feel
Tell me what's real and what ain't
Is it real?
They told me
Don't wear your heart on your sleeve
Cause when you bleed
Then it's out they all will see
Keep your peace
When at war that's all you'll need
Really don't think I believe
But maybe that's why I ain't free
They told me
Don't wear your heart on your sleeve
Cause when you bleed
Then it's out they all will see
Keep your peace
When at war that's all you'll need
Really don't think I believe
But maybe that's why I ain't free